lame

that's how i feel right now. instead of being out drinking with co-workers and friends, saying good by to one of the most awesome people i've worked with, where am i? at home waiting for jen to come over? why? because i can't justify paying for a cab jsut to hang out and have water for 30 mins and leave, because hanging out with jen i more important and i don't want to be tired when i do it. because i have to wake up early and get a good night's sleep. because i have to study for the gmat. because of the fucking gmat.

what was once a noble feat has turn into a crippling handicap. my excitement and dedication has turned into annoyance and regret.

discipline sucks. ambition is a bitch.