lame

that's how i feel right now. instead of being out drinking with co-workers and friends, saying good by to one of the most awesome people i've worked with, where am i? at home waiting for jen to come over? why? because i can't justify paying for a cab jsut to hang out and have water for 30 mins and leave, because hanging out with jen i more important and i don't want to be tired when i do it. because i have to wake up early and get a good night's sleep. because i have to study for the gmat. because of the fucking gmat.

what was once a noble feat has turn into a crippling handicap. my excitement and dedication has turned into annoyance and regret.

discipline sucks. ambition is a bitch.

2009 is off to a strange start

after a fun yet exhausting nye party i found myself not drinking for a couple of days. basking in the luxuries of living by myself and having cable(housitting definitely has it perks) it seemed that the need/desire/ease of having a beer on the couch had mysteriously dissappeared. meanwhile my discipline to study for long periods of time outside class had begun to develop. after a few more days i began to wonder if these two occurances were related. although i knew i was entering trepedatious territory i decided to continue on this path and explore where it lead.

and here i am. still not drinking. save a date and an inaugrual celebration alcohol i have not experiecne the joys of drinking. i don't know how lond this will last. i ony hope that this sascrafice will prove worth it.