"your responses are fantastically non committal"

that's what someone aimed me the other day.

when i first read it i was a bit taken aback. but then just resigned to the fact that it was in fact true.  i then received the next text:

"i wonder if i should even make an effort"

...and that concluded my brief interaction with peter

i can't say that i'm too surprised.  i was never really into this whole thing from the beginning.  

brigette told lauren and i about the site okcupid and how cool she thought it was.   so while we babysat  little alex, and waited an eternity for the pakistani food to come, we got on the site and  checked it out.  to me it seemed fun and harmless.  it started with huge questionnaire that was somewhere between a seventeen magazine quiz and a purity test.  

at the end they gave you a personality assessment.  i was labelled as the "playstation".  i have to say it was a rather accurate description.  after that comes the standard "describe yourself" where you attempt to be as interesting and charming as possible in the allotted boxes.  

a couple of days after joining peter sent me a message.  after a few days of some entertaining yet uninteresting mails he asked to aim.  i should have said no but instead i went against my better judgement and said gave him my aim.  our new form of communication did not seem to make our conversing any better.

when i talked about going to see electro disco, he said nothing about a like for electronic music...or any music for that matter.  when we talked about early 20th century pornographic cartoons he seemed to have no opinion.  as far as i could tell this was the most un-engaging person i've ever encountered.  he did however like to play foosball, he did however live in daly city, he did however puzzle me by asking me out when it didn't seem we had anything in common.  

the next week started another batch of all-too-exciting aims.  he made another attempt to get together and play foosball.  and i again declined due to already having plans.  we talked of pinball in bars, we talked of chess in bars, and when he asked me to let him know when i was ready for a foosball game to let him know i responded with "will do".  then came his oh so perceptive retort.

i have to say his bluntness was very refreshing.  in fact it may have been the first hint of personality i got from him.  but the harshness that came with it turned me off.  i think i was supposed to feel a bit bad abut my dis-interest but "un"fortunately remorse is not something i'm feeling right now.  in fact i feel the opposite.  this experience just makes me smile and feel pretty happy with my imperfections.

yes peter.  you're right i am fantastically non-committal.  thank you.  thank you for the compliment.

i'm in love...

...with "the lab" on kcrw. mario cotto spins some nice stuff. css, mew, death from above 1979, jamie lidell, sonic youth, aphex twin, just to mention a few. a good blend of dance and "indie" rock...pretty much my favorite blend.

he spins from 3:00 to 6:00 in the morning. i'd love to find out who are the people that are working, studying, or hanging out into the wee hours of the morning listening to him. i think it would be cool to round up all of those people and have them meet for breakfast when the show ends. it would be interesting to see if their personalities mesh.

i'd love to see a middle aged security guard who works the midnight shift befriend a SCI-Arc gradate student. they would meet randomly when the student was up all night in the studio and needed a break around the same time the security guard had their "lunch". they'd have sushi or go to that 24-hour drive through place that serves everything you could possibly want at 4:13 in the morning. they would talk briefly about heir lives but mostly about funny or interesting occurrences they'd had recently. it would be one of the first times they get the perspective from someone so different from them yet so in tune.

i love when shit like that happens. when we find friendship in people who appear to be very different from us. it doesn't happen often enough.

working from home

i'm working from home today.

that may be because i worked all weekend. it also may be because i drank my ass of at toronado last night. i have to admit i am a bit of a mess right now but i think the fact i worked on the weekend should make it okay.

apparently i'm not the only one needing a day at home. four other people on my team are doing the same thing. i'm wondering if i'm the only one that feels a bit guilty. i wonder if i'm the only one who's still in bed, watching bad romantic "comedies" (i cannot believe how bad the "heartbreak kid" is....the ben stiller one...who by the way is wearing far too much make-up), who hasn't let the house unless you count going to my stoop to pay the delivery guy.

i intended to be productive. i intended to do laundry. i didn't intend to be the textbook example of sloth. but if walks like duck, talks like a duck, and lays in bed all day like a duck...

so i'm resigning to screw it and just relax.
i can do laundry and work tomorrow.
tonight i'm staying in bed, watching ben stiller's contoured face, and enjoying it.